Day 16

Now for day 16, surprise surprise, everything is still the same. I literally don't notice anything different at all. People keep saying 'Oh well you're swellingis going   down' but I honestly don't see any difference between today and two days ago.

Still, I have an obligation to update. 

School is what I did today, and then write and then watch Supernatural.  I also tried a beginners online yoga class and wow am I ever unbalanced and unflexible. Ot also made my jaw feel weird and I started to drool during the downward dog so that was relaxing...

I'll try it again I should start exercising again but I don't know if I'll be motivated enough to stick with it. I can't wait to get out running again (I say as I lay in bed with my laptop) 

Anyway diet: same. Numbness: same. Discomfort: same. 

I am trying to wean myself off of the painkillers though. I'm done with my prescription and I moved to Tylenol but I don't enjoy putting their toxins into my body more than I have to, onthe other hand though they really work. 

I'm forcing myself to love on one a day for the time being; half in the morning half at night. We'll see how that works. I seem to be okay it just causes a bitmore discomfort   than usual but it's liveable. 

I've said it before but I really can't wait for swelling to be over with because right now I look like I have chubby cheeks and somewhat of a double chin, plus the buck teeth look from the splint. Not very becoming. 

Anyway I'm off to spend the next twenty minutes cleaning my mouth. Until tomorrow fellow surgery goers. 

xx

ps i changed my theme the other one was getting on my nerves so I just went back to simple

Day 15

Here's day fifteen better late than never. 

Still not much to say really. My lip is still numb in the right side, which is still swollen considerably more than the left, as is my chin. Normal, I think, at only two weeks. I'm counting myself really lucky though even though it's not the most fun experience as I had yellow bruising in a small patch under my chin for about three days and that was it, plus my swelling really isn't THAT bad. Still I don't enjoy looking so lopsided and droopy on my right side I hope it isn't permanent. 

I tried to eat a pancake too. I though I could open wide enough to stuff it in and just mash it on the roof of my mouth but I was sadly mistaken. Sigh. 

Theres a wire poking out too, so every time my lips move it catches on the inside of my cheek and it hurts a lot. I stopped by the orthodontist to get some wax but they're closed on holidays until the 18. What fun. 

Anyway that's about all I have to say today. Nothing is acting up and I'm in the same discomfort I've been in all week, just with the added wire. I tried to get pictures of my teeth like I said I would but they didn't turn out. 

Well, that's about everything. Here are some pictures (:

xx

ps ye i am wearing my onesie again its the best thing to change into after school <3 

MILESTONE- Day 14

Another day,another week. Two weeks in today wow.... so unbelievable. Of course, as Dr Barr said yesterday, already two weeks is still only two weeks. 

Swelling keeps going down slowly but surely so I'm LOOKING better but I feel pretty much the same. My chin is still tingly and pain med don't help much it just sort of comes and fades as it pleases so I live through it. 

Eating habits are the same. Assorted smoothies and Boost while my family eats delicious smelling meals yippee for me. My mom made sloppy joes tonight aka one of my favourite things ever so ya thanks mom. 

Anyway school has been pretty easy catching up wise thus far and my test was pushed to next week so as far as I know I am mow expected to do it? My teacher still has yet to supply me with the notes I asked for though so I can't do much study wise. This isn't a jaw issue though so moving on. 

My one tooth feels weird still but I foun out it's the one right under the elastic so I'm thinking it's just the pressure. Can adult teeth even just fall out anyway? I don't really know but I'm thinking no...

I took my elastics out  again for brushing and it felt even weirder like my jaw felt so heavy it was weird. I manage to open pretty wide though but my jaw feels odd now so I'm giving it a bit of a rest.  

I need these stitches out now though everyone keeps making me laugh curse my funny friends/life situations it is causing such pain. It feels like they're actually ripping out sometimes! 

Numbess is the same as my last update. The only thing that's changed is that my bottom lip on the left is completely back so it isn't a weird tingly in between state anymore which os good. I want the other half back though it's making my right side look all droopy and uneven. 

Speaking of uneven I noticed that my teeth, well I don't know if it's the actual jaw or the splint causing it, but they aren't running straight. Like the teeth on top move upwards to the right if that makes sense. I'll try to get a picture of it tomorrow while my elastics are out if I can remember. My left molars also don't feel lined up when I run my teeth along them. It feels like my top jaw is still smaller than the bottom but moved to the right. So the right molars are all good but it's uneven on the left. I forgot to ask the Dr about it so I have to remember to ask next appointment. I mean I want to say to myself 'They're the surgeons they moved the jaws where they wanted them' but it just feels wrong so I don't know what to think! 

People keep saying I'm really brave for going through with surgery and I guess I am but to be completely honest I had absolutely no idea of jut how awful the first week was. And I knew I would be on this liquid diet thing and all swollen for a long time after but when you're post op and still eating real food with a non swollen face it seems like no big deal. Well, it is and I am so tired. I want to eat real food when will this be satisfied no one knows. 

I really want to get back to work but I'm also enjoying this  time off. I also still can't talk really though and I work at Tim Hortons so it's a bit problematic. I'm leaving the decision making to Monday. 

Well that's about all I have to say for today, here are some pictures! xx

all i can manage smile wise. better but creepy. 

love my left side 

my right needs some time hahah 

another creepy smile to end the day 

Day 13

Soooo I missed posting yesterday again but oh well. 

I had my appointment with Dr Barr and it was literally like five minutes. All he said was that I can take my elastics off to brush and eat (if I want to) 

I did that and it felt SO WEIRD. I felt like my lower jaw was going to just fall right lff it was really loose. I couldn't figure out how to get them back on in the same spot he had them though so I just hooked them on, he said it didn't really matter if it was exactly the same. It feels different though 

Also one of my bottom molars feels weird, almost like its a bit loose but I can't really tell because it's in the braces and all. Maybe it's just because of the pressure? I don't know , I'm just a bit worried that if I put the elastics on wrong it might affect my jaw ... but Dr Barr said there really isn't much that can change it at this point so 

My stitches should be coming out in. the next few weeks too which will be nice cause smiling/laughing is still extremely painful. 

Not much else happened. I used my last pain pill so I'm moving to plain old Tylenol because I definitely can't go without any medication yet, especially over night. Speaking of which sleeping elevated is getting so annoying but if I sleep flat my jaw feels weird and it's sort of painful. I can't wait until I can sleep on my side again, I miss curling up. So many things we take for granted that our jaw affect hahah.  

Anyway that's about all. I was a bit more swollen than usual I think but I'm not really worried about it. 

Looking forward to straw drinking but its still a while in the future. I can't even close my lips together yet. But it will be way easier to eat while I'm out. I get so hungry at school (thank god I'm not there all day) and I can't eat at school :( 

Anway, here are some pictures (:

xx

this is how much I can smile at this point before it starts to hurt. This is still fairly uncomfortable. Of course, everything is uncomfortable right now. 

Day 12

Well I survived my day back to school but it rained so I think the weather was trying to say yes you should have stayed home but who knows, I'll look for a sign to stay home in anything. 

Everyone told me I looked 'cute' with my chubby cheeks which I don't know how to feel about. I can't wait for the swelling to go down more though. Especially since at this point it's lopsided and my right side looks all droopy and weird. 

Anyway my test ended up being moved back a week by my begging classmates and very nice teacher so I'm not sure if I'll have to do it yet I forgot to ask. All in all I'm not TOO far behind. 

Anyway, I feel pretty much the same as yesterday except a lot less fun because I don't get to be lazy. Aside from that I'm down to two pain pills a day but the pain isn't really THAT bad, I'm just a major wimp. My chin is all tingly though and I've yet to determine whether or not I find jt painful. It's not a horrible pain, but It definitely isn't very comfortable. It's sort of like a throbbing except it's a sharp pain rather than the normal dull throbbing we usually get with a general cut or stubbed toe. I also had to sneeze today but I withheld so I'm still here. I refuse to sneeze during this process as I am extremely scared of the unknown outcome. 

I'll be seeing my surgeon tomorrow but I'm not really sure what to except. Despite the countless blogs I've read I'm not exactly sure what they do at the (almost) two week mark. I hope they remove my splint though, even just for the  appointment. It desperately needs cleaning. My entire mouth needs the equivalent of a car wash, I mean my infant brush and proxy brush and rinse can do so much when I'm elasticized shut and can't open my mouth/move my lips.  

I'm going to try driving to school tomorrow too. My moms going with me in case I decide I'm not ready but hopefully it's all good because I'm not taking the bus I absolutely refuse. 

Anyway I'm not sure what else there is to say about today other than I'm growing extremely weary of Boost and smoothies. 

first time in almost two weeks with makeup on 

still hard to believe this is what i look like now 

Day 11

Sunday marks day eleven and I have moved back into my room.... I have to say I miss my little nest downstairs. I can also say I am not at all looking forward to school tomorrow. This recovery week went by way too fast I enjoyed laying on the pullout couch watching my shows and reading and writing and over all doing very little productive work. But alas, the time has come for me to re enter to social world. Luckily I only have school until noon every day (period four islunch  at 12 and I have a fifth period spare :D) Not sure how I'll manage hunger wise though. Usually by second period I'm starving but maybe because I haven't been eating as much I'll be able to last. 

Today I went to the movie to see Out of Africa, its an old one. The theatre was playing it for their Classic Film things and my mom and I were the only ones in the theatre so that was cool. My best friend also came over so it was the first time she's seen me. She says I look 'cute' with my chubby cheeks. She also said when she saw my first picture on facebook she had to check the name because she almost didn't recognize me so I'll take that as a good sign. 

I drank an Orange Julius strawberry colada today too which we asked for watered down and the girl serving us sao she had the exact same thing done! I can't believe the amount of people I've run into or been told about who've had it. I really didn't know it was so common!

I've still got swelling, but its mainly on my right side. My mom says that on the left I look almost normal if she didn't jnow any better but the right is still puffy and a but droopier than the other, maybe because it's more numb than the left. The girl on cash at Value Village asked if I'd had my
wisdom teeth removed and I just shook my head sadly as my mom explained that it was far far worse. My bottom lip is all tingly to the touch on the left side but totally numb on the right still. My chin is completely numb also but that's it at this point which is good! I'm drinking without a cup and barely dribbling, if at all! 

My next appointment with my surgeon is Tuesday and then I'll finally be seeing my ortho next Tuesday the 19th (and then off the Paramore on the 20th!! Hopefully I can sing a bit more by then!) 

Well it's late and I'm looking at a very early morning lucky me, so I'll leave you with some pictures! xx 

still fairly puffy on this side. 

but fairly normal here.

 

Day 10

I just fully realized that I'm making post surgery posts now. Incredible. It feels like just yesterday I was stressing out and wishing the surgeon would call with my damn date already.
Like I said yesterday, things are getting loads better, thank god. There is barely any pressure at this point, and not much pain. I'm taking my medication whenever I feel I need it (as long as it's been longer than five hours) and I can go quite a bit longer than the five. I still haven't managed to motivate myself to keep eating often so I'm not exactly keeping my nutrition and weight up well..I'll probably go and drink a Boost after posting this because I feel bad.
My family has also left me for the day for my brothers hockey tournament and of course, today of all days, people keep deciding to call the house. Sorry people, I can't answer on account of I can't talk.
 I don't have too much to say today, it was just a plain old boring day. Had some boost, cleaned my mouth/teeth, watched Supernatural, wrote my NaNo, was lazy. There isn't much else to do really when you're recovering from jaw surgery. Normally I'd be eating my boredom away but we all know that isn't going to happen. I did manage to have my first post op cup of tea though. It took me a good twenty minutes and it felt weirder to drink than anything else for some reason.
I've also started yawning again. Not as often as I did pre surgery, but at night before I go to bed I have to fight the urge to yawn. A few times I haven't been able to hold it back and let me tell you it is the weirdest thing ever. First I feel like I'm about to rip my jaw open and yawn, so I have to put my hand (gently, I had genioplasty also) on my chin and hold it in place while I attempt to yawn through a clenched, closed jaw. Uncomfortable, and also it makes my left ear pop. And not the usual, daily random popping where the sound changes a little bit either. No, it's like there was a block over my ear and suddenly I can hear like, EVERYTHING. Not sure how I feel about this yet but.....it's weird, that's for sure. I'll be making sure I'm caught up on sleep to keep it at a minimum, that's for sure!
I'm hoping I'll feel good to drive on Monday. Not really sure if there's any protocol on that one...I know I can't exactly turn my neck well as it hurts my jaw a bit and even though I don't do shoulder checks as often as I should, there are some situations where it's definitely necessary....however, I refuse to take the bus because for some reason the bumps are 100 time worse on a bus than in my car which will not be pleasant for my jaw for obvious reasons.
Anyway, I just wanted  to give a little update so I don't forget and end up missing it again haha. I would post pictures but I literally look the same as I did the last time I posted so. I'll post some tomorrow though just for kicks. I personally don't think the swelling has gone down anymore yet but who knows maybe I just haven't noticed.
I also can't smile. Not even a little one, not without it hurting at least, as my family knows very well when they keep making me laugh. Even then my lips move like a fraction of an inch so it doesn't look like I'm smiling anyway.
God I just can't wait to finally be able to see the bite I've gone through this torture for! I just have to keep reminding myself that before I know it I'll be saying one  month, five months, a year post op and this will all be a distant memory and I'll be chomping down on a delicious sandwich that is not followed by entrails hanging from my teeth.